Wednesday, March 14, 2018

My first thought when I woke up today

The greatest lie and truth ever told: life is short. Our individual lives are short, barely a blip, a ting maybe. Some shorter than others but even the woman that celebrates 112 years is a blip, maybe a bleep but a resounding gong is only achieved by love luckily gratefully not lifespan. Life has been long, not mine or any living human being but life itself. Visit a park, my favorite place after a beach. The trees are alive, growing, changing adapting. They don't crumple under a shift in the weather. The don't break when their beauty isn't recognized or stand taller in their strength. The are not mourned in their passing, not as they should be. They are alive, living, they are life. A blade of grass a single tulip, all alive. Life is on going and whether it was the big bang or breath of life from Goddess life is the beginning millions of years billions of people. The end of a life is an undeniable short thing but life is not. A human life is extended past the last breath by the hate or love that lingers behind. I want to be a bleep hopefully a gong. I don't know what to call those whose memories of the hate they inflicted on the world allow them to not die but unfortunately there's love in it. Sometimes the love to replicate sometimes the love for the possibility of never having the hate duplicated, learn from the past to not repeat it and all that jazz. But love, love has given some individuals hundreds of extra years, thousands. I'm biased of course but do you think Prince will die any time soon, his music that has spanned decades that will inspire generations that haven't been conceived yet. It's not the love of his music that will allow him eternal life or genius talent. It's the love from and for Prince Rogers Nelson. The anecdotes, memories, laughs, crys. I think constantly about Shell and Bobby, the love they had for me the love I have for them. The laughs, discipline, concerns celebrations hand outs, pull ups. I share my 23 and 30 years of love with my kid and their kids and they'll pass their love mixed with mine to their kids and friends and so on. That's the only way to make my far too short life extend past the ting of my last breath, drop the anger worry stress any negativity and love my way into joy, happiness beauty a blip. Love to forever so if/when the end comes it's love waiting to grow again and expand.